Thinking of what would happen tomm.....

These days after shifting to a new place i think i can count on my fingers as to how many days did i actually be sleeping happily....no no its no the room thats bothering but some thing else....

Didn't i learn it from my past experiences..yes i did...but why is this happening to me...is the phrase i keep thinking these days...there is so much to do in life...so much to read so much to learn...but still i am not doing that...why? is the question i keep asking myself for which i even don't know the answer...

I think missing home after some 7 years of staying outside...but is that the whole point is or i am missing myself these days? not able to find out also...

Tried asking more and then realised that...Frustations in life increase even before we realise that they are there...and they enter to life so fast that to take them out it takes years some times...i don't know but we do get into the vicious circle of life without our own knowledge and then we think that we are the only ones...don't we...ya we actually do...now according to pyschologists they call it neurotic spiral....ha ha ha...caught in one like that....its some how difficult to even trace that we are in one...

Feels like going away from this place...but i don't know will that actually help me...or i would end up entering into a new vicious circle...some time seems like go back home...god these days i am missing it so much...feels like i should not have done engineering and all this MBA and then SAP and chose to a degree happily stay at home with mom and dad....that would be like heaven.....Seriously thinking about it...Is this is the time to leave and go....i don't know...will see...